Thanks for the giving

So, I'm feeling much better now. A lot of the stress I was feeling has passed because the projects have been completed (up to the point they were required to be by now).

I tried my first "case" last week. I was working for the prosecution and the three juries found the defendant guilty. Mostly, I was just happy I didn't sound like an idiot and I got a lot of compliments from the mock juries. Mind you, they were all jurors under the age of 20. But, it was still a good feeling.

Also, I did my first power point presentation yesterday too. It was a presentation on my Gender and the Law paper for class. I got a little good feedback from that, too. I don't really remember much about my presentation but it finished. I didn't get a lot of feedback, so it's hard to tell how it went over. So, that is that.

Now it's the Thanksgiving break and I've realized that I have about a week until I turn 30 and then two weeks until finals. HOPEFULLY (but really not likely) I will use these three days effectively.

Hopefully you all know how much you have to be thankful for. I am thankful for all of you and the love you give me.

Watching oneself implode is hard

I have had a long two weeks which shouldn't have been so long. Therefore, I self imploded at some point and have completely stopped caring. And, if I have a headache for one more day, I will probably use a dull instrument to dig it out from behind my eyes...

Really, I am starting to feel like a lot of the reasons I have confidence in myself are not actually valid, as far as law school goes -- not the rest of my life. But, maybe it's simply because I have been so scattered for the last month and a half that I haven't really put my full capabilities into anything so nothing can be good. However, this is cause for concern because eventually in the real world I will have to be able to effectively juggle a lot of different projects at once. If I can't do it when I'm in school, will I be able to do it in the real world? Maybe, I'm just sitting in a small puddle of self-pity and I'll be better by next week, hopefully.

Oh, and I realized last night that I am old when compared to a large number of people at school with me. I just wished two people happy 23rd birthdays on Tuesday...screw them and their stupid youth and having their whole lives in front of them. They have no experience or knowledge of the real world. So, screw them and their ability to drink without getting a day long hang over!!!!!

Plus, only one other person at a table of 10 people had heard of "Shirt Tales" which made me sad because it was before everyone else's time of cartoon watching (in age, not in the day). They all knew the stupid Care Bears and Friends, though...

Bah, this has to be my whiniest post ever, so sorry. Thanks for listening though.

Right now I think that I should give myself the day off because I'm disinterested in everything. Maybe five straight hours of TV is what I need to get over the hump...